A few thoughts just after World Suicide Prevention Day. In Northern Ireland more people have ended their life on Earth through suicide this week.
It is vitally important if your thoughts get to the point of resignation that you seek professional help. You can live on. You can change so much else in life if it has become so hard for you to hang on living. You cannot come back to life after you have killed yourself, only Jesus accomplished coming back to life after dying. Life can be very good after overcoming this dark period of suicidal thoughts. Hang on. Get help. Believe in what you can still accomplish in life.
I would like all precious people to consider who they put their trust in regarding suicide. I as a Christian put my trust in God, but not every Church has a trained professional to help you through depression, anxiety, ptsd, suicide… I am a man of Faith and believe in the healing of the Holy Spirit. A Pastor or Minister is an excellent person to go to for guidance and counsel for your precious Soul, and I highly recommend it, as you will be taking your Soul wherever you go after here… I just wish you to consider if you are putting your trust in a person in a Church or Chapel, as a few wrong words from someone could be the tipping point in activating your suicidal thoughts, into actions… It is similar with some other places in towns which profess to have ‘professionals’ to help you with your suicidal thoughts, they may not be trained.
Try anywhere you wish for help, but if it is not helping, do not stay there, go somewhere else, and get help from somewhere else. Do not allow yourself to stop fighting, do not allow yourself to sink further into the darkness and lies of depression and suicide. If you do not want to see me that is perfectly fine, I just wish you to get help, with someone who can help you. I wish to see you tomorrow, next week, month, year… I wish to look into your eyes and say you made it, well done, what a fight you had. Survive. Pray. Believe. Ask God to help. Psalm 91.
These words are from one of my current clients. Be respectful. My client has kindly given me permission to share them. They are from a very deep part. This client has shown amazing strength and courage to face the demons of the past head on. I work in a psychodynamic way which looks into how the past has shaped today, helping to make the unconscious, conscious. This client is now looking at the future with possibilities, instead of being ruled by the past.
“Today, I gently opened my eyes from the darkness,
How do I feel? I’m further back from the abyss,
I’m not gasping for air, i’m not drowning inside,
My mind is at peace, I smile, my tears all cried.
I’ve been through the battles, drugs, sex, bars. Abused, hurt, ashamed, lost. They all left their scars. Dragged about my burdens, crushing me slowly, Guilt ridden, confused but most of all lonely.
One night it came. The voice said ‘just a cut’. It was all the sign I needed to try to escape the rut. I’d no other way out though, I was spiralling down, Somebody? ANYBODY! SAVE ME! I can’t turn this around!
It was too much, I was so heavy, so tired, I needed help, what I found was Inspired. I told him my story, my secrets all unlocked, I wasn’t judged or pitied, he wasn’t even shocked.
All of the troubles, all the feelings slowly teased out Of the mess in my mind, I constantly tossed about. I had no expectation, no goal to achieve, But, I AM a good person deep down I believe.
The road ahead isn’t easy. He understands, he knows. He walks by your side at your lowest of lows. Guiding and helping you to deal with your past. finding a way to forgive it and let it go, at last.
To become who you are, you need to know where you have been. Make peace with it, lessons learned – it wasn’t a dream. The main thing is YOU, who do you want to become? Face everything and rise? or forget everything and run?”
Words From An Inspired Counselling Services Client.
Thank you to all my clients who allow me to go on a journey with them to some very dark places, allowing me with empathy and no judgements, to guide them towards the light again. If you feel led, leave a comment as my client will be following this post.
For some it may be white feathers that turn up in strange places. For others it is a link to the moon. For me; I love the moon shining bright in the sky, it is usually a calm peaceful night when you can see the moon. This is part of the attraction for me.
I am writing about the loss of someone close, someone who is still a part of our lives; they are just not in this world anymore. I know some people who treasure each white feather they see, when it turns up unexpected, and just at the right time when they needed some comfort, and a reminder of their Angel in Heaven. It is a very special, personal, spiritual experience. They think of a little baby that has sent down one of their Angel wings feathers, to remind them that they are with them in Spirit.
My connection is the moon. I know my baby is not there. My Angel baby has wings in Heaven. The moon however has such a special connection since my 1st child went to Heaven. The link is that I cannot SEE Heaven from here. I feel Heaven, have supernatural experiences, and Believe in Jesus; But it is the connection with the moon shining down that connects my thoughts to my little Baby, whom I talk to, love and miss everyday. I talk to my children here about their Angel in Heaven.
I have previously worked many nightshifts in a dangerous place; But if I passed a window and realised for the 1st time that night the moon was shining; I stopped no matter what was happening, which could have been fights by men addicted to many substances and alcohol. I collected my thoughts, and said a Prayer to Heaven with my little Baby while staring at the moon. I was never once interrupted no matter what was going on around me. A supernatural moment Heaven didn’t allow to be interrupted between a daddy and his Baby Angel.
I have had some nights where I just need to go out walking in the moonlight to clear my head. I will at some point just stop, and using mindfulness, stare at the moon, what shape it is, what colours there is, the clouds drifting slowly past making their own story. In reality, I’m not interested in the moon at this time. It is my soul connecting to Heaven, and I just need to keep a clear mind and let it connect. A very spiritual experience. I never take this for granted and it is very grounding. I am just A loving daddy kissing my Angel in Heaven. X
Sometimes I would love to know what my Baby would have become? Married? Loved to do? Loved to watch? Loved motorcycles like me? Loved reading like me? Been more like Mummy? So many questions with no answers, but then my baby went to Heaven so no pain in this world. I also do have this very special, supernatural connection which is so very precious and personal to me. I use the moon to settle my mind, but my connection is not the moon, or white feathers.
I know some of you do not believe in Heaven, which is your choice, but I do, and that is the only reason I include my spiritual views as it is intertwined in my DNA, especially with my 1st Baby. I am very interested in everyones viewpoint. I am non-judgemental by nature and by profession. I would like you to comment with your connection to someone you have lost that was and still is very much connected to you. Do you do anything at Christmas to remember them? I will have a family moment to think about our Angel at this special time. Our children here have a special connection which I love and cherish.
This blog was never started to be my view only; I am a private introvert. I feel my words may help someone, even 1 person, and that is the only reason I write here. If anyone has a blog they would like me to read regarding their Angel Baby I would love to read it so comment with a link to it. I will also say though if anyone comments anything rude or nasty, I will respond, as this is a very personal experience for everyone concerned. I respect everyones views. Please do post your thoughts below here.